Take a stand: GOODBYE TO YOU

Take a stand: GOODBYE TO YOU: I have been attached to you for so long ..whatever am I to do without you? what would life be like? You have been there as I walk up the ...

GOODBYE TO YOU

I have been attached to you for so long ..whatever am I to do without you?  what would life be like?  You have been there as I walk up the stairs making it hard for me to breathe.. you have been there.. when I go to bend over to tie my shoes and I cant... you have been there when I put on my jeans and I have to tuck you inside or lay flat to make you fit..   you have been there when I take a shower and I get out and wrap a towel around me that wont fit... you have been there when I try to look in the mirror and I all I see is YOU... you have been there when I try to look sexy for a man and all he can see is you...

well guess what?? Im TIRED OF you... Tired of YOU being the object of peoples attention... so this is my goodbye letter to you who I will call my fat! Goodbye to all the tears I have shed because I have felt shame.. goodbye to you who have held me back and thought I didnt matter anymore or couldnt change... goodbye to you.. that made my life a hell and made me not want to look in the mirror.. GOODBYE  to you who have made me feel like I was not worthy to love.. goodbye to you who has made my heart heavy and in pain... Goodbye to you... who made me think I wasnt worth it..... I will never speak to you again this is.. MY LAST GOODBYE!

One Minute one day one breathe at a time!

Only one day at a time is all we can.. I have noticed since I started this weight loss journey that in the beginning I would beat myself up because I goofed for the day  then that would send me on a downward spiral... But you know what ....over time you learn what you need to do and guess what?? it becomes habit you do it without thinking... the right choices start coming naturally.. 

Remember Never let the fear of striking out get in your way... No one is perfect and mistakes will happen.. the minute you realize this don't think tomorrow is another day.. instead think the next minute is another choice and begin there.. 

Do a little more each day than you think you possibly can. Very important... if you are exercising and it seems to be a challenge push yourself to do that little extra and then ONE more... 

Do it or not. There is no 'try'...  Commit to yourself and always say you will do it.. try is not in your vocabulary ever!

Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going..make healthy choices.. instead of hamburger and fries.. try a grilled chicken and a yogurt... 

Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you; they're supposed to help you discover who you are.... Challenge yourself daily and the key is to always know tomorrow you can do more.. 

Goals are dreams with deadlines... Make mini goals.. and reward yourself when you meet them....

Impatience never commands success... patience is the key to make this lifestyle change.. remember you didn't gain the weight overnight and it will not come off in a day... 

ALWAYS ALWAYS Believe in yourself!!!

Take a stand

I have so many people my entire life say I cant be that or I cant do this.. Ex Husband voice sounding in my head... he would tell me : "I used you up you gained weight and you're not pretty anymore" What man will want you? look at you, you're fat you're ugly and well . you will NEVER be anything more than my satisfaction..." well that voice is still in my ear.. Sadly.. ......

I have learned I have a voice.. I can say to myself I CAN Do this... I CAN be happy I WILL be healthy  and I AM beautiful...  This poem is something I wrote the day I took my stand...

When life gets you down smile with grace,

To look into anthers face,

to see the pain and want to be complete

only to be loved and not to  be beat

Smile to make the pain go away

to know you will wake up another day

Life is to short to cry one more tear

or to live your life everyday in such fear

Smile for what the future will hold,

To know your life can be so bold

To give strength and hope to all who need it

To know your pain can be defeated

You are strong and Beautiful and grand

So today I WILL Make my STAND!!

Remember that if you truly believe in yourself that you can overcome anything in your life that's abusive ... To know you can make a stand.. to know that you are not tied to that for the rest of your life... Hold your head up High and Believe! 

The New Me

Hi Everyone... I have never done a blog before but I figured heck why not?

I have been over weight for a few years now.. not because I didnt take care of myself as most people think.   I had a migraine stroke about 5 years  ago and the doctors said I would never walk again.... Well Im the type of person.. dont tell me I CANT do something... LOL Im kinda stubborn that way....  So in the meantime I put on so much weight... I think depression and going through a divorce increased it.

I will be 40 this year and finally something clicked!  after spending hundred of dollars on diet aids and exercise videos.. none that worked becaused well it didnt click inside me... THAT I need to do this FOR ME.... all this time it was for a boyfriend or because of my friends being skinny...

Well this time its for ME!  I want to look in that mirror and go damn girl youre hot!

So I welcome this journey and Im so excited about about sharing this part of my life with you... Thank you.... LETS DO IT!!!